What is the Christian internal battle?
Self-portrait as the Apostle Paul (by Rembrandt) (Photo credit: Wikipedia) |
I imagine Paul, exasperated and ever so close to giving up as he sits down to pen these words:
Why can’t I get it right?
“So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.” (Romans 7:14–17 NLT)
I feel the heat of his anger toward himself, his fire to do what’s obedient, his abhorrence of his failing, and his love of God; they all collide in a confusing tirade that only makes sense to us because of our own turmoil and desperation.
“And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t.” (Romans 7:18 NLT)
I give up.
“I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.” (Romans 7:19–20 NLT)
There is a monster living in me.
“I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death?” (Romans 7:21–24 NLT)
I am trapped by my demise.
This passage is so relatable (and so frequently referenced) because of how it simply shows us that we are not alone. We are not alone as we fight and we fail. For centuries even the most notable Christians never grasped perfection. Neither will we.
Paul’s final words in this passage are where we need to rest: “Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord” (Romans 7:25 NLT).
That is where we rest.
- That is where we find hope.
- That is where and why and how we can persevere.